what it's all about

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Charlotte, NC, United States
I am on a journey -like you, I'm sure. A personal journey, a spiritual journey. A journey about passions, growth, and living. I don't have a good memory, but I value my experiences. It's very strange when you realize that you are being shaped constantly, but ultimately only remember some of the reasons why you are the person you're becoming. I find that when things resonate within me, writing about them helps me to better develop my opinions about them, and to remember them. Sometimes, it's the simple act of looking back and reminding myself where I've been that is all I need to move forward with confidence. That's why I write. Thank you for joining me.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

look what I did!

In preparation for my haircut (7 days!) I undtwisted all of my twists. It came out looking like this:

I see I missed one... I'll fix that in a jiffy. Anyway. It looks pretty! Actually, they almost look like locs. :-D I wonder how long they will stay like this before they either fall out, or get all meshed together. I'm sure that will happen after a couple nights sleeping on them. Oh well. The weird thing is that the synthetic hair only came out from one of them. I guess I either didn't untwist enough up top, or they are stuck in the part that is locking. It's probably a bit of both.....

Thursday, March 24, 2011

I'm scared!

Only 12 days till my appointment. I can't call it the big chop because I've already started locking! I'm getting anxious. So funny how this mess of hair affects me... So, why am I scared? First of all, look at this mess!

I know I told you I don't mind the frizzies, but when my hair is short, what's it gonna look like??

And it will be short. Look.That's the length it's gonna be cut to. I feel like I'm going to have to keep grooming for a while, otherwise I'll look crazy. Luckily I work from home, but still... I do venture out into the world on occassion. I don't want to scare everybody away!

Ok. Deep breath. I know I will get over this, and am very much looking forward t going under the blade, but I'm still scared. I wish I had more of an idea what this head of mine will look like...

Thursday, March 17, 2011

whoa! extreme fuzziness!

I washed my hair last weekend and forgot to post about it. My bad. I did not retwist it, and let it air dry. Get a load of this crown! lol. I'm kinda loving it.

I decided to leave it alone for a couple of reasons. One- I'm lazy. Shhhh, our secret! :)
Two- I want to be amazed at the transformation after my next salon visit. I know that's silly, but it will go from long and somewhat messy, to short and neat! I can't wait to see what it looks like.

No scalpage with this fro of growth! Thick, baby, thick! Haha. I know, I know. I'm the epitome of weird. It will look soooo different come April 5! 17 days, but who's counting?? Oh, who are we kidding. You KNOW I'm counting. :) Are you counting with me?

Three- I'm gonna semi freeform. At least for now. Partly because I love the look of freeform locks, and partly because I don't want to shell out $$ for cultivating them. Hey- don't judge! We're trying to buy a new house! Every dime counts!
Also, the idea that your hair locs naturally amazes me. So what better way to experience that than to free form?
I already have all slightly varying sized locs, so I'm obviously not gonna make it if I'm trying to make them look "perfect." And who wants perfect anyway? I know I don't. You may ask, why only semi, if that's how you feel? Don't forget how much I love my salon!! I would be so lost without April. Ok, maybe not lost, but seperated. Also, who is going to talk to me about my hair if I don't go to the salon?? My friends would disown me because that is all we would talk about! Lol.
Ok. So that's my hair today. And... for the next few weeks. Should I be ashamed to go out in public?? Nah. At least, I don't think so. What do you think?

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

can I just say...

being a wife is HARD.

Chris and I have been maried for... oops, just passed the 6 month date. Oh well. I'll remember it at the year date. Lol.

And even though I don't feel like we're that different from before we were married, somehow, being a wife is way harder than being a girlfriend or fiancee. What's up with that?

I am realizing how hugely selfish I am. Also, right now we're looking at buying a new home, and I'm seeing how different our tastes are ..... It's interesting, to say the least. Pair those things with the fact that I'm somewhat unstable anyway, and you have.... .. . you have....

-a mess. Mainly me. I'm a mess. Ha!

I'm praying that I can be a better wife. A better person, in general, but especially towards my hubster. I'm gonna go ahead and ask that you pray for me too. I will take all the help I can get!

So that's all. Just wanted to put that out there. I'm hoping at least some of y'all can identify with me on this. I can't be the only newlywed who's feeling like a bad wifey.
And of course, I had to show you some stages of my hair in there too. The first pic was on our wedding day (obviously) . I was hoping you could see the huge ole bun I had. Oh heck- here it is:
BAM! Ain't it huge? I Loooved it. And it was all mine. All my hair! No sponges or donuts.

The second picture (with the super cute pixie cut) is when we first met, and the third (on the roof with my long, somewhat relaxed curls) is after we were engaged, about three years later.

Anyway, thanks for listening. -er, reading. You're the best.
Until next time....

Thursday, March 3, 2011

freshly groomed

So, this is how I was looking this week. Uber fuzzy, but I don't really mind it. And actually, the more research I'm doing, the more I am thinking I you will see me looking like this regularly. But I'll get to that in another post, after I am closer to being cofident that I know what I'm actually talking about and getting into.

Here's a close up of my roots. I am about 5 months in. It's a good view of what length my hair will be when I chop off the twists next month!
A little too much flash, below, but this is the same day as my retwist. Looks much neater. There's definitely scalpage going on, but only really at this angle.

This is the next day, after having slept with my scarf. See, less scalpage from this view.
Nice and tidy
Ok, so that's what I'm looking like right now. My hair as grown quite a bit since Septemeber, hasn't it?

Oh, and April loves this "loc" of hair:

I do too. I've shown it to you before; it's the swirly one that's all my hair. It's doing it's own thing.
I am going to miss it when I cut my hair. How crazy would it look if I kept that one strand? Lol.

Well, my friends. That's it as far as the hair update. I feel like I itch more the couple days after the retwist. Do y'all notice that too? Maybe cuz it's pulled a little tighter. But I'm trying so hard not to touch my head so I can keep it looking neat.
I've got some other hair stuff on my mind, but I'll save them for anothe post. Stay tuned!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Countdown to the cut!

It's official, these strands are getting CUT! :) I am so excited. I told April I wanted to chop them last night during my retwist, and she could tell I was ready. I really am. I have half a mind to do it myself right now.

My appointment is set for April 5. Let the countdown begin!