what it's all about

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Charlotte, NC, United States
I am on a journey -like you, I'm sure. A personal journey, a spiritual journey. A journey about passions, growth, and living. I don't have a good memory, but I value my experiences. It's very strange when you realize that you are being shaped constantly, but ultimately only remember some of the reasons why you are the person you're becoming. I find that when things resonate within me, writing about them helps me to better develop my opinions about them, and to remember them. Sometimes, it's the simple act of looking back and reminding myself where I've been that is all I need to move forward with confidence. That's why I write. Thank you for joining me.

Thursday, October 20, 2011


My hair is doing absolutely nothing for me these days. You would think that after a year, it would more closely resemble a head of matured locs, but it just doesn't. I just have this frizzy, tangled mop. :( I reach back there, and can feel that there are lots more locs that are firming and tightening, but in the front, what I see is the same old thing that I've had since, I don't know, May or something. Come on, hair! Lock up! Please!?! I'm slightly discouraged and wondering if my hair will ever look like the beautiful heads I see everyday. I have loc envy like, whoa, right now. I could almost cry, if I'd let myself...

I did get a very nice complement form a man the other day, who told me he loved my hair. He told me he had long locs for 10 years and recently cut them off. He said it was a very emotional experience for him. I can only imagine, as I'm sitting here getting emotional over this mess on my head, now. That was encouraging, but today, 4 days later, I am feeling poopy about my hair again. And don't get me wrong, I don't think my hair looks bad- really, I don't. I just thought I would see more progress by now. This is a looooooooong process for me.

I also can't decide if I like my hair better when I let it do it's own thing, or when I twist it. I guess it doesn't really matter, as I can twist when the mood strikes, but it's kinda weird not knowing what look you prefer. I have something coming up that I am debating going to a loctician for, just to get everything nice and neat. But other times I get out of the shower and see my crazy hair and love it. I think I should probably go in anyway, as my husband pointed out I have loose hairs that aren't picking any locs to attach to. Another set of experienced hands and eyes should help with that. In fact, I might go make an appointment now. Just not sure if I want to schedule it for the event or not. Hmmm.

What do you think? Do you like my hair better when it looks more wild, or more refined?

Monday, October 10, 2011

I'm alive! again....

Hey all! I am so sorry I've been MIA. I tried to post earlier last week, and it didn't go through, and then I completely forgot about it. I was kinda shocked when I didn't see the post here today, lol. I really apologize. I have been super busy with the move, a ton of work stuff, dinners, visitors in town, going out of town, going away parties, a sick husband, and finally a sick me. It's been crazy, and I am a hot, worn out, tired-of-being-sick mess. I have barely been online except for work. Please forgive my poor blogging as of late.

I'm sitting here, trying to think of what to tell you, but my congested head is not letting any of my thoughts through clearly. Well, let's see. The move went really well. We are fortunate enough to have been blessed with lots of amazing friends and family who were able to come help us out and get us moved very efficiently. We're in, settling down, and really starting to enjoy the new home. We're already building great relationships here in the neighborhood, and are excited to see why God has called us here.

And that's about all I can really think of to update you on- life wise. We are really blessed. Unfortunately, we have both been sick, but we're on the mend. Just looking forward to continue to build our future together. I'm excited about the fall weather, too. And pumpkin spice everything. :)

So, hair. I don' have much of an update here. I was freeforming for most of the last few weeks, finally retwisting last week with nothing but water. It was super frizzy in no time. I think because it had been used to doing it's own thing for the previous couple of weeks, it was resistant to my twisting and manipulating. I'm not feeling it right now. But I'm not really feeling much of anything in the state I'm in, to be perfectly honest. I don't really know what my hair is doing, besides taking it's own sweet time to mature. Ha. Well, anyway. That's what's going on. I have not even taken any hair shots since the move, but I did snap a couple this morning for you.

Here you go:

where the cat liked to hang out before we put a stop to it.

another one of her spots

view from the kitchen on a rainy day
our home made art work

So that's it. I hope you all are staying healthy and happy as the seasons change, and I won't let it go so long between posts in the future. Take care!